This is my better side.  The side that has been richly blessed with Grandcritters.  Baby Jay is soooo fat and cute, a little like his name sake, greatgrandpa Jay.  I will probably still call baby Jay, baby Jay, forever.  I just can't quite bring myself to call him Jay yet.  Jay is my dad, and he is a little stern at time, and well anyway.  I don't care who you are, that is an awesome pic.   

We did celebrate the moment.  Corbyn loved the water and I did also.  I have never meet bodies of water I did not like.

Only a true angel can make an angel.  He is such an awesome little man.  Very smart.  At dinner when we were almost done, Travis would do this little test with him about certain good guys and bad guys in the Book Of Mormon.  He made it interesting for all.  Corbyn always knew the answers to the questions and said the names of the people well.  That is amazing. 

I have always loved the water.  When I see it I must partake.  If you know me, then you know this.  If you do not know, know you do.  Proof.  Has Heather said in her blog, it was cold.  Polar bear cold.  Corbyn, is usually not thrilled with the water so it took us by surprise that he would just run in like he did.  It was awesome cold

We are playing in the water.  Lauren is not afraid of water at all and she just goes running in.  Later whe starts picking up the green kelp and throws it at me.  Brave little girl.

Pre birthday party   fun party hats.  I learned how to make them while I was there.  I know they look a little funny, Lauren did not care.

maimai with Lauren and Camilla

at the farmers market

and dance.  You have to love her boots.

While in Washington playing, I had plenty of time to craft with Lauren and pull faces

This is my dad and this is one of his GREAT GRANDDAUGHTERs.  Wow he is old. 

Dancing with daddy

Katelyn, Corbyn, me, baby Cami, Ethan, Lauren and Ty.  These are my critters and I love each of them. They are all doing there own thing.  It was a great day. 

Chantel is leaerning the funny face thing.  She is getting better

Dancing

At least when the critters are over I can play in the water with out the neighbors thinking I am weird

ITs a Party

Who does not like water

This is a genetic disorder

The whole family

Camilla is growing so fast.  I miss her just looking at her pic        

                                                    The day before the wedding the critters where working
                                                     hard in my new critter spot

May the smiles on your

May the smiles on your face here last and may God shine blessings on you.

Tyler and Ashley, Lauren and baby Camilla came to Utah on Camilla's 2 week old birthday.  Ashley just could not miss Josh's wedding.  Thanks for coming Snow's.  We had a almost perfect day. 

Josh and Chantel were married.  We have quite the family now.  All my children are married and I am totally empty nested.  Weird. 

Ty and Corbyn with there new ties that mommy made

One Year

It has been one 365 days since I was kicked out by a man that may never find peace and contentment in his life. I worked a sixteen hour day because I was not sure what I would feel like.
After truely living the 365 days, I for a brief moment contemplated sending a Thank You card to him.. That did not last long. I have had one of the hardest years of my life. I have cryed till I was sick and vomitted, prayed till my knees where bruised, ran till my lungs hurt, sat alone so many times I thought I would die. I was not sure I would see a real happy day again. I was sure dead was better than alive. I did not want to read, work, garden or do any craft. I watched all my movies more than once. While watching one of the movies, which I will not mention the movie, there is a line, "You can either, get busy dying or get busy living." It stuck with me for a long time and I really have always liked that line. I pondered this and realized I was not living, not the kind of living I usually did. Which in contrast must mean I am dying.
Again pondering and sitting by my computer, I looked up and had placed many photos of God's gifts they he sent in my life. I broke down and cryed hard and realized there where 5 one on the way sweetest things on this earth, who did love me. What kind of legacy do I want to leave to all the critters that will come into my life? I feel to my knees on my favorite purple praying rug and thanked Heavenly Father for the wonder PARENTS of these precious souls and for the precious souls. The legacy I chose to leave is one of never give up. God may close on door, however there will be an open window if I am willing to look.
I would like to thank Josh for listening to the spirit that told him his mother needed him. His cute wife who meet me the day I totally feel totally apart and still likes me. Tyler for just loving me without needing to judge me, Ashley for her prayers. Brooke for coming to a group session that was a little uncomfortable for her but doing it because she loved me. Jason for always be kind. Heather for calling me and loving me and I am sure Travis prayed for me. Tess for just being who she is, which is a kind compassionate person. Patty and Wesley for taking time out of their crazy life and dealing with cancer, for coming to check up on me.
This is strange and I know it before I write it. I would like to thank the spirit that dwells within me for not giving up on me. My guardian angels have had to work overtime to keep me going. They are a little overworked and need chocolate.
I have good friends, good family and the best adult children (oxy moron) and the cutest critters ever to walk crawl the earth. My life is good. I am grateful for that. I love my house my yard my garden my job and I actually love me. Me is not to damn bad either.
My 100 days heart challenge is coming to an end. I have loved that. I did not lose all the weight I wanted to, however I look and feel better than I have in a very long time. I am happy and I know it so I run.

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100 day heart challenge

I began the 100 heart challenge yesterday. day 99, starting my morning with cream of wheat and a sausage. 

Most of us at the first of the year have some items we feel we need to be better at.  I am changing my outlook on the New Year.  I am Having a Motto to live by for the 2010 year.

Write your sorrows in sand and your
BLESSINGS
                    in Stone.

There is not one of us who has not or will not walk in and out of several crisis' in our lives.  I am crawling out of a crisis and seem to have become so absorbed in the darkness that Satan wants to keep me in that I wonder if I will see the sunshine again.  I have to stop to ponder the many good things in my life.  I do have blessings, and some of them are my 4 children 
who try to walk by the light of Christ.  They have added to my life companions they have chose to love forever.  Then, that added the blessing of grandbabies.  I will write these blessings in STONE because they will always be blessings.  Thus, the sorrows will eventually wash away and the stones of blessings will be there.
May the New Year bring the the strength to carve the blessings in STONE, and have the insight to watch the sorrows disappear.  



HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL